2012: My Real Life Journey to Another Dimension – A Process of Ascension.
I have just finished writing an article on 2012 and Ascension but I found I could not figure out how to end the article. A point that came up within me in relation to this is that maybe I could not find a way to end it because I was writing the article from a place where I am not.
So I am taking a step back here and am going to write from where I actually am. Where I am actually standing.
It was interesting also as I wrote this article on 2012 that my upper back started to clench up quite a bit and I couldn’t get comfortable in the writing, so yes, I am going to, as mentioned take a step back and see if I can find some ground for me to stand on.
Lol – omg – I accidentally ascended to somewhere else, to somewhere I am not, to attempt to write that last article on ascension.
Ok so flag point here – to ensure that when I go to write something to just check in with myself and make sure I am not projecting myself into some alternate personality or idea of myself but just be self honest with where I am in process and where I am Actually standing.
Ok and my back is relaxing now to – cool.
So the point is to stop judging myself as who I am which then cause me to create an alternate self based on desire – Desire to be something more, something better – In that never actually getting to know or see me because I am never here with me as who I really am but always attempting to exist out there somewhere in some self created god like self that is not in fact who I am.
I basically stepped into some imaginary ascended idea of myself as being somewhere in process and I was attempting to write the article I mentioned from that stand point – Opps, I was standing on a cloud as ascended master instead of standing HERE on solid ground with me where I am actually standing in this moment in my process.
Its a desire to be somewhere in process where I am not. It is also related to self judgement, judging myself for where I am in my process, for how I have walked thus far, and so then I “like magic” place myself in some alternate Ascended dimension of myself and try and express myself from that vantage point – lolololol – Ok this whole sequence of events is ironic, seeing as how the whole topic I started with was Ascension only to realize/see my own Ascension unfolding right before my eyes without even noticing. – But cool I am seeing another “take” on Ascension in relation to this point how we as beings are constantly A-Sending ourselves into different exalted dimensions of ourselves that is just an illusion of who we really are, and attempting to live in that imaginary perception of ourselves when all the while that is not the real self at all. So the point here I see for myself is to stop judging myself and stop Desiring to be somewhere where I am not – Its best to start here with and as the very guts of me. The not so pretty truth of self.